Our new furniture!

Well once again, blogger is loading pictures so weird. It will NOT let me type above or below the pics! The above pictures are our awesome new furniture as promised in our last post. We rearranged our living room, and dining room as shown in the first two pictures. We LOVE this new furniture, and most importantly it does not hurt my NECK!!!!

We are very blessed, and are so thankful for family and friends that helped us move it all! Hope you enjoy them. I am not to sure about the pillows that came with them. I think I am going to get some light blue chenille pillows. What do ya'll think???

Fall is coming........

Hey peeps! Sorry I have not been keeping up with my blogging as much lately. When you are going through IVF, it seems like every day there is something going on and you are blogging all the time!!!!

Well last post I told you we were doing the last 2 tests in the fertility workup. Well the HSG came back great. Both of my tubes are open!!! Praise Jesus! The post-coital test was "inconclusive." So we will be waiting until next month to repeat that test as it is very specific to a certain time of your cycle.

Most of you who know me IRL, know that I suffered a severe neck injury on a roller coaster in July 2006. I have been through every treatment imaginable, (pain doctors, PT, MRIs, facet injections, TENS unit, anti-inflammatories etc.) and they have diagnosed me with Occipital Nerve Neuralgia. Well there is no treatment, just managing the pain. Since TTC, I stoped my med I was on because it causes a decrease in amniotic fluid in pregnancies, and needless to say my neck has been getting so bad that this past weekend, I was unable to function. Today I missed work and went to the doc and he started me on a new med for nerve pain, not a narcotic but supposed to help. I am in bad shape with this injury and really dread the thought of living the rest of my life with this pain. But Sweetness and I are praying about it, and that the Lord would take this from me. Maybe He will.

So with all of that going on, we decided this weekend to buy new furniture that does not push my neck forward because the back of our current furniture is so high. We are very exited about our new couch and love seat, and they will be here on Thursday. Don't worry I will post pics!

We are still waiting on the Lord's leading as to when the right time is for the doing the FET. It seems to us now that it will be later than mid-October.

And probably the best thing is going on is in 8 days....FALL IS HERE!! I love fall mainly for the football weather, but also love for sweater weather, hot chocolate, snuggly sweatshirts etc. Bring it on baby! I am so excited!

Thanks for the prayers and comments, we will show you our new furniture in the next post!!!! Take Care!

And the problem is/was.....

Well Sweetness and I had our appointment this morning with Dr. Robin (our RE) to discuss what could have gone wrong with our IVF cycle and why we did not get pregnant. She said there are 3 possible options from what she can see: 1-my transfer was extremely difficult, took over an hour to get the catheter in to transfer the embryos 2- could have been a chromosomal abnormality in the embryos and 3- I could be one of the rare cases of women that make antibodies that attack the embryos. Of the three scenarios, she said she is almost certain that it was the transfer. I can not convey to you how bad, how difficult the transfer was. She said the great thing about this problem is that it is easily fixed, because it should not be a problem with a frozen transfer. This is because my ovaries are back down to normal size now from the stimming medications, which is why they were so large, causing my uterus to arc up at 90 degrees so she could not get the catheter in. Hope that makes sense??!!

So she said that we could do IUI cycles, or go ahead and do a frozen transfer. Sweetness and I discussed our options and we have decided to tentatively go through the FET (frozen embryo transfer) in mid to late October. So I will start BCPs soon and get my uterus ready to try again.

I asked her what she thought the infertility problem was with us, because we have been placed in that awful "unidentified infertility" category. She said based on what we have seen thus far, I have a low ovarian reserve. Meaning I do not have many eggs. So it is hit or miss whether I ovulate any given month. Great! So we have decided to go ahead with the last 2 tests of the infertility workup: the HSG to look at my tubes, and the post-coital test to check and see if I am hostile to sweetness' sperm. So those tests are scheduled for Thursday (all at one time) and I should know the results that Day. And just to cover everything they have drawn blood for an "Implantation Failure Panel" to check for the antibodies that attack embryos.

Sweetness and I both feel encouraged after today. Dr Robin is sooo sweet, and she was so sorry we did not get pregnant. We are all trusting the Lord, and I think it is important to not forget that God can make ANYTHING happen, despite any circumstance if He wills it. So we are excited and looking forward to this new adventure. Please continue to pray for us, we feel them surrounding us, and we know the Lord hears each one! Will keep you updated!

Ending with a scripture we all know:
But they that wait upon the LORD shall renew strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; they shall walk, and not faint.
- Isaiah 40:31

Par-tay Time!!!

The other night we had a surprise 30th Birthday party for my friend Kristen at the Cheesecake Factory. It was soooo fun, there was about 25 of us, and below are the pictures. Blogger is acting up and will not let me caption the pics, so sorry cant tell you who these people are, but you can see the good time!

















Sorry I have not blogged in over a week. I have been purposly keeping myself busy, to not think about the failed IVF. Sweetness and I have an appointment in the morning to see Dr. Robin our RE to talk about what may have gone wrong, and somethings we can do differently on the next try with our frozen embryos. I will post tomorrow and let you know what she says. Hope everyone is having a wonderful Labor Day Weekend!!!! Back to the grind stone tomorrow!!!

I KNOW He is for me......

Well today it has rained ALL day! And it kind of signifies how I feel inside. I know that God is purifying me to be more like Him, but man this is a hard struggle. I wanted to celebrate this weekend so much......but it was just not to be right now. I have been listening to praise and worship music almost non-stop the past couple days. It does bring so much comfort, I know HE is with me always, and He sees each tear I cry, but this will take some time.



Sweetness and I are hoping we can get enough money together by Oct/Nov to go back and try IVF again with our 3 frozen embryos. At least we have them. Thank you all for the sweet text messages, emails and comments. It really does help to know we are being prayed for.



The song below is one of my favorites, "I know that you are for Me". Kari Jobe is such an amazing worship artist. I love to turn it on, and close my eyes and think of the POWER in these words! He is for me, He is for you! We love you all, and please keep us in your prayers and as we mend our broken hearts! Enjoy the song!!!!

PS- Remember too scroll all the way to the bottom of the page, and press pause on the black music box, so you can hear the song I posted!

Our Broken Hearts........

Hi girls. Well the beta test came back negative today. We are truly heartbroken. We are really trying to trust the Lord and His perfect timing, but man this is HARD! Sweetness is taking this so hard, bless his heart. Please keep us in your prayers, we just can not afford to go back and get our 3 frozen embryos right now. Believe me I wish we could. Why does this have to be sooooo expensive???

Lord, we know you have a plan for us. Help us trust you please, because we just don't understand. We love you and trust you. Be near to our broken hearts. Amen.

Our new kitchen floor!!!!

When I bought this house a year and half ago, I knew there were some "upgrades" I wanted to do, and well I have been busy dating my now husband, getting married, going on a honeymoon, and now we are getting around to doing some cool stuff with the house.

The kitchen floor was an eye sore for me from the beginning. Below is a "before" picture. The floor literally was just the slab of the house, and the previous owners put down some type of paint with speckles in it. I know.....very hot!

Well while we were doing the floor, we pulled the fridge out to lay the tile under it, and I don't know if you can see her, but Maggie wedged herself in between the wall and the fridge! She is such a funny dog.
Well without further ado, here are the "after" pictures. This picture is where we keep the dogs during the day, behind a baby gate. Their kennels are usually in this large space. But the floor looks so good, makes it look much more open!

Here is another shot, and there is my Maggie girl!

And this is the same shot as the "before" picture, just now with a new tile floor! Sweetness and I are so sore and tired. We both now have aching backs, but we are proud of ourselves, and more importantly it is DONE!!!!!

As far as where we stand with our babies, we are still in a waiting game. My mom has been praying the Lord would give me some peace or a sign. Well today, one of my doctors that I work with told me he could just feel it that I am pregnant! He delivered over 1500 babies in his career in the military, and he said he can just sense things. I told him I am still getting negative urine pregnancy tests, and he told me how many times he has seen this same thing very early on, and the blood beta test came back positive. So I believe the Lord gave me more hope today.

Sweetness and I are hanging in, and waiting for our miracle on Friday. I will for sure update Friday night and let you guys know the results. thank you so much for the prayers, we still need them!