Friday, August 6, 2010


Well as I sit here with my heart breaking, I am wondering why this is not going smoothly???

I started bleeding about an hour ago. Yep, that elusive period that I have not had, has decided to show up after 5 days of stimming meds. This is like unheard of!!!! So I called the clinic and had the doc on call paged, she calls me back and I basically told her I want to be seen at the office tomorrow. She has me coming in at 10:30am, so we will see. But obviously my body is so messed up that it is having a cycle in the middle of stimming.

We will probably regroup and start all over. But seriously, I am not happy with my care at this clinic. I LOOOOVE my old RE, but she is 3x as expensive as this clinic. I am so torn, but I will be having a conversation with my RE tomorrow. I just paid you $20 000, I want to be treated like I AM somebody. Stop brushing off my concerns as just chatter messing up your plan. I know my body, I also have a doctorate in medicine, so I know what I am talking about.

The weird thing is that at dinner tonight I said to Sweetness you watch I feel like I am going to start bleeding. And sure enough, my body goes awry!!! The doc on call said "well you are just throwing us all for a loop" and I responded, "That's why I am there, my body is abnormal in cycling, you guys should have never let this happen."

So tomorrow we will see what they say, I am sure we will regroup and begin anew next month or so, but gosh this is so frustrating. I posted on my status "Sometimes when God presses you into the depths of grief, He wants you to worship Him there. Lord Jesus, please heal this aching in our hearts!"

I will update more when I know something! I covet your prayers......

Barely any follicles!!

So I went in for my first follicle scan, and I am getting worried. There were maybe 3 SMALL follies on each ovary! Last time we did this, we had like 13 on each side! WTH????

I asked the doc if I should be worried and she said it has only been 4 days of stimming, so not to worry. But seriously this is why I am worried..... I can not be sure where the medicines were, or how they were stored before they were donated to me, and then Sweetness accidentally left a couple of the boxes of Repro.nex in the car in the heat the day we got them. I asked about this when it happened but they of course had no way of telling us if the meds were still okay or not. So I am scared that the meds have not been stored correctly, and may have lost their potency??!!! And I am so thankkful for the medications being donated to me, but the truth is they expire this month and I have no idea what temps they were exposed to before I received them, and I am just worried they are not working as well as they should.

UGHHH I am not sure what to do at this point. I thought about secretly taking more than they prescribed for tonight, but then I would be more worried I guess. Why cant this just go easy???

So I have to call the phone tree tonight to see what my instructions are, but she said they will probably have me come back tomorrow for a scan, that alone makes me nervous also.

Hi I'm Heather, and I am a nervous nelly about everything today! lol

Well I will update when I know more. Thank you for all the sweet text messages letting me know you are reading this blog. Other than that, everything is going splendid. Sweetness and I could not be any happier, I am truly so blessed with the most amazing husband ever!!! I just adore him!