Tuesday, April 19, 2011

The worst possible news....




Well as the title of thispost you can tell today was not what I had planned. The Kell tests came back, and the biological mother of the embryos is Kell + and the father is Kell negative. So all that means is that we can NOT put our 4 donated embryos into our surrogate. UGH UGH UGH UGH. Remember she makes antibodies aganist the Kell protein, so she would unknowingly attack the embryos.

So now what?????? I have no idea! I am so upset, deflated and miserable right now. Why is God allowing us to suffer so much? Some people get pregnant after 1 or 2 rounds of IVF- and we are willing to go through all of this- and to still have it stripped away WHY????

I feel like a kid in line watching everyone else get their candy or their perfect Christmas gift, and there I am when they say "I'm sorry I didnt bring enough, we are one short" and there I am with empty aching arms. Where's mine????

I don't really have any thing more to say, I am still in shock really.

Please pray for me. I really need it today.

10 comments:

  1. Oh no, no, no. I'm sooooo sorry sweetie. I know hearing "I'm sorry" isn't what you really need or want. I just don't know what to say. You don't deserve to go through so much. Man....not fair. I'll be praying for you. ((HUGS))

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  2. Oh, no! I am so, so sorry... I will be praying for you and your husband as you decide how to move forward from here. (((HUGS)))

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  3. So sorry to hear this sad news...............you have my prayers for guidance on where to go from here......surely you must have thought of this as a possibility????? Why don't you consider having the adopted embies implanted into your own womb as soon as is practical? Again, so sorry, and so sad for you both.

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  4. Prayers coming your way. So, so sorry for this devastating news. :(

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  5. Oh my heart goes out to you. I am praying for you my dear. He has a path for you - we may not understand it right now, but trust in him. XOXO, Laura B.

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  6. Heather ~ My heart goes out to you. May the peace of God guard your heart and mind.

    Tatjana

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  7. I'm so sorry. Who can understand all of this?? Thinking of you today and every day until you find peace.

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  8. Praying very hard for you!!

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  9. So very sorry and heart broken for you!
    You are right - it just is not fair.
    Hoping all your dreams come true very very soon!

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