Some really great news!!!

As I blogged yesterday afternoon, I finally "started"!!! I have never gone 60+ days in my life! I have no idea why this happened like this, other than God's timing is perfect- and maybe , just maybe, it was to bring us to this special moment in time that will turn into our "time."

So I called the clinic to report Day 1- and poof!! Just like that I am on all these meds preparing my body to receive my precious babies. OK here it is: last night I started Love.nox 40mg each night, applied 2 Viv.elle patches, started baby aspirin a day, and prometr.ium progesterone. I could not believe how quick we are back in the IVF saddle again!

So I have a specific protocol to follow for the next 15 days, and then our transfer will be Friday, November 19th!! I am so excited again!!

Talking to my Sweetness last night, we both are happy to be back actually doing something to make our baby a reality. The waiting is agony, really it is!

One more thing that I would like to mention, is Sweetness just found out he tested positive fro an antibody marker for Lup.us. The doc said it was a very low titer- but he has never tested positive for it before. So because he has such a bad family history of genetic immunological issues (his mom died of rheumatoid arthritis in the lungs, and one brother has rheu.matoid arthritis pretty bad), they are sending him to a Rheumat.ologist to have it checked out. Of course he is nervous, but I am asking my prayer warriors to please offer up a prayer on behalf of my precious husband, that this would not be anything serious.

Thank you again for all the encouraging words- maybe just maybe this is it! Love all you girls and I promise to do those blog posts I keep promising and then never get them done! Life is too busy! :) Have a remarkable, fantastic, and super duper day!!!

Can it really be????

OK ladies- I can hear the angels singing down here!!!! Hallelujaer Hallelujer...... It looks as if the period that never was going to show again, has finally appeared today and I have never been so happy about AF in my life!!!!! :))))))

So now, we can move on to the FET protocol! Thank you Lord!!!!

Frustrated and tired of waiting....

Well today is Halloween- a day I do not celebrate in any way. I just hate everything associated with it. I don't begrudge anyone who chooses to celebrate it, but I just HATE this holiday.

But I have been in a bit of a cranky mood today, partly because I hate this day, and partly because I am sooooooo frustrated! I mean I am trying really hard to be patient, but I am now on cycle day like 60!!! I don't ever remember a time when my body has done this.....never! And because we are waiting to do our FET, it seems like my body WILL NOT cooperate! I have already taken a full course of Prove.ra and have waited the 2 weeks after the drug course to start and still......nothing!

I am not thinking about it all the time, I'm really not- It is just something that at the end of the day I think of and am like "I really haven't started today again?" Just so aggravated!!!

But a highlight of the weekend, was Sweetness and I went to a HUGE outlet mall yesterday about an hour and half from our house and got ALL our Christmas shopping done! Yes that's right, DONE!!!!! We also went to a Yankee Candle Factory outlet that is Christmas themed all year long and it was amazing!! I took tons of pictures and I will do that post sometime tomorrow at work, hopefully!

Thank you all for your faithfulness to pray for us even when I have not been updating my blog here much, but there really is not much going as we sit and wait for AF ya know? But I am still trying to stay current on all of your postings! Thanks again for the prayers and thoughts- they mean a lot to the both of us.

I will try to be in a better mood tomorrow, after all its November tomorrow and I am putting up my Christmas tree tomorrow evening-so I have a full 2 months to enjoy it!! Call me crazy or whatever- but WE LOVE CHRISTMAS SO MUCH !!!!!

Until next time- Prayers for all my friends waiting too- Lord Jesus please open our barren wombs!

Cycle Day 53..... seriously!

Wow- I am so sorry. I have not been on blog.ger in like 2 weeks. I am so busy and then so tired in the evening. There is not much to say. I have finished my course of Pro.vera to start bleeding, but of course NOTHING!!!! I think something is seriously wrong with my body. I mean really, I am on like day 53!!!! UGH!!!!

So if I never start, we will never have our frozen cycle!!!
I WILL CATCH UP ON ALL YOUR BLOGS SOON, BEAR WITH ME! AND THANKS AGAIN FOR ALL THE SWEET COMMENTS AND PRAYERS. THEY ARE SO UPLIFTING!!!

Cycle Day 48!!!!

To say I am frustrated beyond belief would be a HUGE understatement. I STILL have not started, and I am on day 8 of Prov.era. They said it is normal to not start bleeding until after you finish the full 10 pill course, but man I am frustrated. So I have been staying really busy since so as to not concentrate too much on this cycle that can never seem to get started.

I will let you know for sure when we start doing something!!!

In other news, Sweetness and I are doing really well. We are both working hard and then we have started walking in the evening trying to get in better shape for when we get our baby!

Something new we have started doing.....we put some old electronics on Craig.slist and have made a ton of money! It has been such a nice surprise. It really is a cool deal, you have old stuff you are no longer using, and the other person gets something they want at a really good price!
We have made so much money that we actually broke down and bought ourselves an iPad that we have been wanting!

Sweetness and I are being good little children and sharing only one iPad between the two of us. It does do some really cool stuff, and the size is perfect, but I have to say I thought it was going to DO something supercool that other mac gadgets dont do. It really does not do anything more than my iPhone 4 does, and it even does not have a camera. But Sweetness loves it, and anything that makes him happy ,makes me happy!

Tomorrow I will do a cool post with TONS of pictures of a very neat fund raiser for Breast Canc.er that has been touring in our area called the Bra-ha-ha. People have taken bras and decorated them with themes....and boy are they CUTE!! So stay tuned, and I will get it completed by tomorrow, as blogger is not allowing uploading of pics for the next couple of hours to due site maintenance.

Just wanted to let you all know we are still here, just kind of in an intermission stage at the present, must amazingly we are at PEACE!!! Love you guys! :)

A New plan!

Well guys this has been a crazy day from start to finish. So I have a few things to tell you.

I posted last time that I am soooo late- so yesterday I said I was going to call the nurse. So I did and she said my Dr wanted me to come in and have an US and blood work to see what my body is doing. They then informed me that it would not be covered under my "shared risk" program. So it would be $220 for an US, and $150 for blood work. I told them I could not afford that right now, so I would just continue to wait, hopefully AF would show eventually.

But the more I thought about it, I got mad. I called back and told my RE's nurse that I just paid you guys $29,000 and you cant give me an extra US to figure out where we are going from here. REALLY????!!! She then talked to the RE and he said he absolutely would help me and do it for free. THAT"S WHAT I'M TALKING ABOUT!!!!!

I went directly to the clinic and the US showed a very thick lining, and 3 follicles which are preventing me from bleeding. Soooooo, my RE gave me a Rx for Prove.ra to make me bleed. Then we decided since my body typically has the very long cycles, and we don't want to have a cycle in the middle of the this cryo cycle- we are going to start the Vive.lle patches the day I start bleeding with the Po.vera. So all of that to say..... our transfer of our 3 frozen embies will be in about approximately 3 weeks!

I am excited, but not overly so. I guess I am just trying to protect myself here. I don't know how much more heartbreak my little fragile heart can take.

And BTW- yet another pregnancy announcement this week. My 20-something cousin is now preggers with her 3rd baby. I talked to her and and asked her if this was an "oops"- because she previously said she was done. And she tells me "Oh yes, total mistake! Birth control doesn't work for me (she got pregnant with baby #2 on BCP) and so we were using other methods, and we think the condom broke." Really???? I just cant believe people can be this fertile! It is so foreign to me that people can get pregnant so easily. She then stated she was not really that excited...... are you kidding me? I would DIE for that feeling- literally DIE for the feeling of knowing I was pregnant just once!!! I will NEVER ever take even one moment being pregnant for granted. **Sigh**

So we are moving forward and feeling good- tempered hope and lots of joy!

In other news, I went to my pain doctor again today, and he changed my medication again still trying to find the right one with no little side-effects, that's safe during pregnancy and that cuts this horrific nerve pain. So he gave me a Rx for a long-acting pain medication. I went to Walgr.een's to get it filled and it was $1298.00!!!! Seriously! I was floored, and even with my insurance my copay was $200! I can not even begin to guess how much money I have spent on doctors visits, procedures, physical therapy, and medication etc. on this neck injury the past 4 years.

I am definitely crying out to God for total healing. I would appreciate any prayers you may offer up on my behalf asking the Lord to heal my neck. This pain has been so severe this past 3 weeks, I go to work and come straight home and lay on my back on a heating pad on my neck all night. I want to do all this stuff with my amazing husband and go for evening walks now that it is cooler etc. and I just cant. Hopefully this new medicine will help. I will let you know~ Thanks ahead of time for all your prayers!

I hope all you guys are well, I am still following your blogs and praying for you too as we all dream of the day we get our BFP!!! Thanks again for all your support, I don't know what I would do without you all to vent to! It great to know there are women out there that truly understand all these crazy emotions that go along with this rollercoaster we are on. Ya'll have a fabulous and fantastic Friday tomorrow :)

Still waiting

Ok, I still have no AF!!! I am on day like 41!!! This I believe is at the root of my infertility. My hormones and schedule are so irregular! I am kind of worried, and also kind of over the whole thing.

So its not that I have quit blogging, but I don't have much to say these days and they continue to pass by and nothing!! I will update when I know more- I am going to call the doctor today and see what he thinks.

Have a great Wednesday ya'll!