8dp3dt

Well still no second line- but some other blogs I follow that used these same test strips I am using, started to see her second line at 9 days past transfer. I am 8days today. I am trying so hard to be patient, so hard to trust. I have always found it hard to be still; so one of the verses I have recited most of my adult life is to "Be still and know that I am God."

I know He sees me, I know He wants the best for me, even though some days I just don't understand! I scheduled my beta test for Monday morning at 7:30 am. Hopefully I can get back to school by 8 am- it is the first day of a new term so I can't be late!! Then I should know the results Monday afternoon.

Thank you all for the wonderful support. It means the world to us! Hoping for a faint second line in the morning.....

It's raining inside.....

So it's 7am, and I am already sitting at my desk at work. It is pouring down rain outside..... but oddly I feel like it is raining in my heart. I am such a mixed bag of emotions right now. I know I must trust the Lord, but I feel so sad, like this didn't work, then I go back to "it's too early to tell yet." It daunting really how much my emotions can change.

I was driving to work this morning and just started tearing up, wondering if God really does see me? Out of all the billions of people in the world, does He see my broken heart? Does He really care about me having a baby? My head wants to cry NOOOO!!!! But my heart knows what I believe and I am forced back to it time and again.

I think my good friend having her baby the other night kind of reiterated it to me how sad I am waiting for MY turn. It seems no one in my family or that I know IRL can relate at all. They all have at least ONE child. We would take JUST ONE!!

So enough of my pity party, I have students to teach and they are expecting a happy, cheery Dr. M!!!

And just now, as I was typing this, Sweetness just sent me the following text message: "Babe, our time will come and God will reward you for your faithfulness. Just remember all the positive feelings that you've been experienceing that you havent felt before and focus on nothing else. I do love you more than anything else."

WOW!!! What an awesome reminder from the Lord of the bessings I DO have in my life. I still have freinds out there waiting to find Mr. Right, so I consider myself to be truly blessed indeed.....

A Blog lift

Just wanted to let ya know that I got myself a blog lift over the weekend. I loved my old header so much, but it needed a change and so did I!!! So voila!!! Hope you likey~ it really makes me happy!

Still no elusive second line ladies...... but I am only 6dp3dt, so I know it should start showing up around day 9. Believe me if anything changes I will let you know!!!

Thanks for the prayers.

Oh!! And congrats to my special friend Robin and her hubby Mark on Welcoming their precious daughter into the world last night!!! Brehana Marie Munley was 7lbs 7oz, and is perfection!!!!

Feeling blah.....

Well I knew this feeling would come, it always does. But I am feeling down and like I am not pregnant at all. I don't know why but I do know that I hate these 2 ww. They are too stressful and too demanding emotionally. So for now I am curled up with Sweetness and resting in the fact that I have an AMAZING husband. I am truly blessed....

The 2ww begins........

Well the dreaded 2ww has begun...... I have laid around all day and literally bored out of my mind. It is weird because when you have to get up and go to work you are exhausted and would do anything to stay in bed and sleep!! But when I can this morning, I just lay there, thinking about my subs and will they teach the class the way I would, and will my students grasp the information etc.....

But amazingly we are one day down and 12 more to go!!! I must say I have a really good feeling about this cycle...... I cant explain it, but I feel my soul is at peace. I am actually feeling like this may really work this time, I mean it might really work!!!!

So I am off the rest of this week and plan on doing nothing, and tomorrow is suppose to rain all day again like today, and if I love anything it is sleeping in a thunderstorm!!!

Something weird this morning, when I awoke, my throat was killing me! It felt like razorblades to swallow. It felt as if the uvuela in the back was swollen or something. It has gotten better throughout the day but now it is back and it is awful! I really hope I did not contract a virus from the people at the hospital!! I will keep an eye on this for sure!

Well thanks again for following us on the journey, we are hoping these really are our miracle buns in the oven!!!

I am pregnant (until proven otherwise!)

So we get to the clinic at 7:30 am, and because I was so ill last night, they started an IV right away and gave me another dose of Zof.ran. It really helped with the nausea. Below is a picture of my favorite nurse Beth, and she was so wonderful getting the IV started. No one can ever get one in less than 4 sticks in the BEST of circumstances, but let alone when I am dehydrated! She was able to do it in three!! Yeah Beth!!! Just LOVE LOVE LOVE her!!!


The they did an US to see why I was in so much pain for the past two days. I had a large amount of fluid behind my uterus (which they said is very normal), and my ovaries are still HUGE, like 7cm each!!! So nothing really wrong just normal stuff, so we decided to proceed today with a 3 day transfer!

Finally at 11:15 am they took us upstairs to the OR suite to get ready. They delivered a "bunny suit" as they called it, for my Sweetness to put on. Here he is modeling it below......he is a bit too tall for that thing!!!

Then a picture of the two of us for posterity sake, just before we got our babies put in!!!

Then, always being the entertainer and comedian to distract me, Sweetness began to get antsy and was being silly!

And one of me in the lovely shower cap.......

And our comedian again....silly boy!!!

Then, we finally were wheeled into the OR. The embryos were already compacting, meaning they are moving on to the next stage of division. They were perfect!!! Grade 2 embies!!! They looked so great that the embryologist recommended only putting back 2, but we went ahead with 3. If we get triplets then c'est la vie!!! We will make it!!! So without further ado, here are my precious little ones.....

The transfer went SUPER SMOOTH!!! Nothing like our last fresh cycle transfer, which was awful. If you want to go back and re-read how bad that one was, it was blogged about here. This one lasted maybe 10 mins and was so special, I began to tear up!!!! The Lord was with us all the way!!!

I am in awe once again of the miracle of life! As I lay here, Sweetness is looking at me adoringly, "loving his pregnant wife". I mean there just ain't nothing better folks!

Thank you Lord Jesus for this incredible blessing! We beg and plead with you to allow us to be the the earthly parents of these miracles in my tummy! We are in awe of your creation! We will give you ALL the praise and honor no matter the outcome!!!

Will update in a few days. Until then I will lay here, and let them percolate!!! I am in fact PUPO (Pregnant until proven otherwise!!!!:))))

Wow have I been sick

Well just a quick update before the big day tomorrow! I have been so sick today, vomiting non-stop, and having some serious pain in my abdomen. I was trying not to complain and just knew it would get better, but oddly it was getting worse. So I finally called the doc on call tonight, and she actually did my retrieval......She tells me that my retrieval was not easy and she is not at all surprised that I am hurting as much as I am. Well nice of some one to tell me this. No one ever said ANYTHING to us. She said my ovaries were kind of hidden behind scar tissue and that they had to push really hard on my tummy to get to them, so no wonder I am dying here!

So she called in some Zof.ran for me to the pharmacy to stop the vomiting. Sweetness just picked it up and boy am I feeling much better now. We avoided a trip to the ER, so I am very happy!

We have to be at the clinic at 730am tomorrow, and they will check me out, and give me some IV fluids if needed, and get me already to get my babies put where they belong.....in me!!!

Thank you again for all the prayers, emails and messages. We feel really good about this cycle- even through all the ups and downs- we feel the peace of God radiating around us, and are so hopeful this is our time!!!!

I will update tomorrow evening if I can and let you know how everything went, and we will for sure take pictures of our sweet littles and show you on here!! Until next time, I will be PUPO!!!