Saturday, August 22, 2009

On egg shells.....

Hey girls! Well I am still waiting on the Lord, because I have taken an HPT everyday since last Wednesday, and they are all BFN!!!!! I am getting really scared that this did not work. I mean how can you put in two perfect embryos and nothing happen??? I honestly don't think I really prepared myself for it NOT working....and I am now trying to bring myself to this very real possibility. I feel so scared, depressed, angry, and hopeful all at the same time.

I wanted/want these babies so badly, my heart hurts to think that they left me. Sweetness sill feels sure that the test will turn positive tomorrow or the next day, but I have been reading all these IVF blogs and everyone that got a BFP got it on like day 7 or 8 after transfer. Tomorrow (Sunday) is my Day 8, and I am still believing God for my miracle.

Please pray for me, as I struggle to keep positive and desperately hope against hope that our sweet babies are still here in me. Love you guys......

3 comments:

  1. Hoping you get a positive test tomorrow.
    Thinking of you both.

    Suzanne

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  2. Babe didnt look too happy coming out of the bathroom this morning, so I knew that she had taken an ept. We both want this to happen, but I can understand why she has the stronger feelings. I feel like she should just wait until "the" test on Friday and trust in the Lord, but...once again I can understand where shes coming from. Im going to stay positive, because I just havent had that feeling that the Lord is telling me we cant have children at this time.

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  3. I know exactly how you feel! Just try not to stress and relax. I have to keep reminding myself that everything I am going through is part of God's plan...as tough as it may be! Praying for those precious ones!

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