SO EXCITED!!!!

Hey girls!!! Well I got the official word today that we will most likely trigger tomorrow evening and harvest the eggs on Saturday morning!!! That mean by Tuesday morning I will be PUPO!! (pregnant until proven otherwise!) I am so ecstatic that we have even made it this far in this IVF cycle. It has been harrowing to say the least! But we are almost there! I have what look like 7 really nice eggs on each ovary!!! My lining is still 7mm, even after all this bleeding. But as of this morning, it has finally stopped. Just a slight brown tinge on the TP. Thank you Jesus!

I will update more later! But just wanted to let you know where we are. My estrogen is through the roof in the 2000 range, and believe me I can feel it. My boobies are so sore, I literally can not take my bra off it is soooo painful!

Thanks again for the prayers, and I will let you know how we progress!!

More miracles....

Well I should know by now that my GOD is in the miracle working business right? But I continue to fret and worry, but I am getting better. I mean this IVF cycle has been so full of uncertainty and craziness, this was the 3rd time going to the clinic that I was sure they were cancelling my cycle.

I mean I have bled all weekend, how could they not, right?? But alas, we did not. So here is the down low. My lining has gone from 8mm to 7mm, which is not bad considering how much I have bled. I have LOTS of follies on each ovary that are about 13mm (they need to be 16-18mm to harvest), and my estrogen rose nicely to 954. So all of those things are exactly what they want to see!!!! So why the heck am I bleeding? Who knows, but for now, they are just hoping it will stop by tomorrow.

So we are to continue stimming, and see me back on Wednesday. On Wednesday hopefully they will set the date for egg retrieval on Friday (I hope).

One other nice thing is that IF my lining does not cooperate, we will still harvest the eggs and create the embryos, and then freeze them all until my lining is just right and so a FET. This is not ideal, and certainly not what I want but it is an option as to not loose all my eggies!!

OHHHHH, and another awesome piece of information!!! I just called the specialty pharmacy to refill my stimulation meds, because I am needing another couple days worth; and lo and behold, I HAVE RX COVERAGE FOR THIS LIQUID GOLD!!!!! Amazing! Simply Amazing!! So IF we have to repeat the stimulation, I have insurance coverage, so it will literally save like $2000!!! God is so good, even when we don't understand.

Lord, please help my unbelief, help my worry, and turn it all into a reason to praise you more!

Thank you for all the face.book comments and sweet notes. They all mean so much to us and we conquer yet another hill!!!!

Bleeding......

I am amazed once again. So we get to the clinic this morning fully expecting to have the whole thing canceled. I had blood taken, then the ultrasound. My head RE was there. And when he did the US, my follicles were huge!!! I mean they went from 3 mm yesterday to like 11 and 13mm today!!! ( I have a theory on this that I will elaborate on in a second). And my lining looked really good at 8 mm. So he said that if my blood work comes back today and my estrogen has risen like it should, we will continue forward and just chok the bleeding episode up to something strange.

So the RE just called me and said my estrog.en went from 169 yesterday to 359 today. Very nice increase. He is so confused as to how I can be bleeding when my estr.ogen is rising and follicles growing???? But the bleeding has now gotten worse, like a full-fledged period now, with bright red bleeding. So he said for me to continue on the medicine and we would reasses on Monday afternoon. I am asking you guys to please pray this bleeding stops SOON.


Oh I forgot to tell you that I did talk to me RE about the lackadaisical way they are handling my IVF care. I emphasized to him that when I pay all this money, I EXPECT someone to act as though they care what I am going through. I am obviously not a run-of-the-mill IVF patient. Nothing is going smoothly, and no one is talking to me! He seemed very concerned that I was so frustrated. He also told me to call him anytime I wanted and he would always answer my questions if he had an answer. My mom came with Sweetness and I, and she said she felt very certain that he "got it" and understands now that I need some special care as we struggle through this. I do feel much better now!

So my thoughts as I continue to bleed, is that I am hoping we can at least get to the harvesting of my eggs, and then if my lining is not right, since I am bleeding, then we could freeze the embryos, and do a FET next month. I just don't want to waste all this expensive medication. It's over $2000 each fresh IVF stimulation cycle. So that is my prayer right now.

I am on bed rest and just trying to trust the Lord that He knows what is happening and He is still in control! Thanks everyone for interceding on our behalf!!!

Heartbreak

Well as I sit here with my heart breaking, I am wondering why this is not going smoothly???

I started bleeding about an hour ago. Yep, that elusive period that I have not had, has decided to show up after 5 days of stimming meds. This is like unheard of!!!! So I called the clinic and had the doc on call paged, she calls me back and I basically told her I want to be seen at the office tomorrow. She has me coming in at 10:30am, so we will see. But obviously my body is so messed up that it is having a cycle in the middle of stimming.

We will probably regroup and start all over. But seriously, I am not happy with my care at this clinic. I LOOOOVE my old RE, but she is 3x as expensive as this clinic. I am so torn, but I will be having a conversation with my RE tomorrow. I just paid you $20 000, I want to be treated like I AM somebody. Stop brushing off my concerns as just chatter messing up your plan. I know my body, I also have a doctorate in medicine, so I know what I am talking about.

The weird thing is that at dinner tonight I said to Sweetness you watch I feel like I am going to start bleeding. And sure enough, my body goes awry!!! The doc on call said "well you are just throwing us all for a loop" and I responded, "That's why I am there, my body is abnormal in cycling, you guys should have never let this happen."

So tomorrow we will see what they say, I am sure we will regroup and begin anew next month or so, but gosh this is so frustrating. I posted on my face.book status "Sometimes when God presses you into the depths of grief, He wants you to worship Him there. Lord Jesus, please heal this aching in our hearts!"

I will update more when I know something! I covet your prayers......

Barely any follicles!!

So I went in for my first follicle scan, and I am getting worried. There were maybe 3 SMALL follies on each ovary! Last time we did this, we had like 13 on each side! WTH????

I asked the doc if I should be worried and she said it has only been 4 days of stimming, so not to worry. But seriously this is why I am worried..... I can not be sure where the medicines were, or how they were stored before they were donated to me, and then Sweetness accidentally left a couple of the boxes of Repro.nex in the car in the heat the day we got them. I asked about this when it happened but they of course had no way of telling us if the meds were still okay or not. So I am scared that the meds have not been stored correctly, and may have lost their potency??!!! And I am so thankkful for the medications being donated to me, but the truth is they expire this month and I have no idea what temps they were exposed to before I received them, and I am just worried they are not working as well as they should.

UGHHH I am not sure what to do at this point. I thought about secretly taking more than they prescribed for tonight, but then I would be more worried I guess. Why cant this just go easy???

So I have to call the phone tree tonight to see what my instructions are, but she said they will probably have me come back tomorrow for a scan, that alone makes me nervous also.

Hi I'm Heather, and I am a nervous nelly about everything today! lol

Well I will update when I know more. Thank you for all the sweet text messages letting me know you are reading this blog. Other than that, everything is going splendid. Sweetness and I could not be any happier, I am truly so blessed with the most amazing husband ever!!! I just adore him!

Day 4

Well there is really nothing to report. But I wanted to check in and let you all know we are still stimming every night and doing Lu.pron and Lo.venox every morning! My poor stomach is so sore and bruised, but it's all gonna be worth it!!! We feel so happy and have so much hope!!!

Thanks again for the prayers and I will update tomorrow after I go back for my first follicle scan!! Toodles!!!

Day 1

Well I know yesterday I said I was going to start the 30 in 30 days postings that my blogger friends are doing, however, now that we are actually stimming and going through an active IVF cycle, I figured I would just focus on that for now.

Boy these injections are not fun!!! So we are injecting 300units of Gon.al-F and 75units of Repro.nex each evening, then 5 units of Lu.pron and 40mg of Lov.enox each morning! This morning was the first day I have ever injected Lov.enox- OUCH!!!! It burnt the mess out of me!

But alas, this is what I wanted so I shall not complain! Things are going very well. I will update more when I know. I go back to the clinic Friday morning for my first follicle scan!

One thing Sweetness and I noticed last night after reading over our blog, is that almost one year to the day last year we started our first IVF #1 stimming. I really cant believe it has been an entire year building to this point, yet I can. Somedays I feel like I have been infertile for 5 years and other days like only a month or so. I pray wholeheartedly that this is it, and I will be able to celebrate and turn this blog into a pregnancy blog!

I will let you guys know when we get closer!!! Thanks again for the prayers!

Grow follies grow!!!