I KNOW He is for me......

Well today it has rained ALL day! And it kind of signifies how I feel inside. I know that God is purifying me to be more like Him, but man this is a hard struggle. I wanted to celebrate this weekend so much......but it was just not to be right now. I have been listening to praise and worship music almost non-stop the past couple days. It does bring so much comfort, I know HE is with me always, and He sees each tear I cry, but this will take some time.



Sweetness and I are hoping we can get enough money together by Oct/Nov to go back and try IVF again with our 3 frozen embryos. At least we have them. Thank you all for the sweet text messages, emails and comments. It really does help to know we are being prayed for.



The song below is one of my favorites, "I know that you are for Me". Kari Jobe is such an amazing worship artist. I love to turn it on, and close my eyes and think of the POWER in these words! He is for me, He is for you! We love you all, and please keep us in your prayers and as we mend our broken hearts! Enjoy the song!!!!

PS- Remember too scroll all the way to the bottom of the page, and press pause on the black music box, so you can hear the song I posted!

Our Broken Hearts........

Hi girls. Well the beta test came back negative today. We are truly heartbroken. We are really trying to trust the Lord and His perfect timing, but man this is HARD! Sweetness is taking this so hard, bless his heart. Please keep us in your prayers, we just can not afford to go back and get our 3 frozen embryos right now. Believe me I wish we could. Why does this have to be sooooo expensive???

Lord, we know you have a plan for us. Help us trust you please, because we just don't understand. We love you and trust you. Be near to our broken hearts. Amen.

Our new kitchen floor!!!!

When I bought this house a year and half ago, I knew there were some "upgrades" I wanted to do, and well I have been busy dating my now husband, getting married, going on a honeymoon, and now we are getting around to doing some cool stuff with the house.

The kitchen floor was an eye sore for me from the beginning. Below is a "before" picture. The floor literally was just the slab of the house, and the previous owners put down some type of paint with speckles in it. I know.....very hot!

Well while we were doing the floor, we pulled the fridge out to lay the tile under it, and I don't know if you can see her, but Maggie wedged herself in between the wall and the fridge! She is such a funny dog.
Well without further ado, here are the "after" pictures. This picture is where we keep the dogs during the day, behind a baby gate. Their kennels are usually in this large space. But the floor looks so good, makes it look much more open!

Here is another shot, and there is my Maggie girl!

And this is the same shot as the "before" picture, just now with a new tile floor! Sweetness and I are so sore and tired. We both now have aching backs, but we are proud of ourselves, and more importantly it is DONE!!!!!

As far as where we stand with our babies, we are still in a waiting game. My mom has been praying the Lord would give me some peace or a sign. Well today, one of my doctors that I work with told me he could just feel it that I am pregnant! He delivered over 1500 babies in his career in the military, and he said he can just sense things. I told him I am still getting negative urine pregnancy tests, and he told me how many times he has seen this same thing very early on, and the blood beta test came back positive. So I believe the Lord gave me more hope today.

Sweetness and I are hanging in, and waiting for our miracle on Friday. I will for sure update Friday night and let you guys know the results. thank you so much for the prayers, we still need them!

Feeling Blah......and a quote

I'm just gonna post a quote today. Feeling kind of blah, wishing Friday would hurry up!

This spoke to me.....

"God knows when something glorious in the future necessitates something difficult in the present. Because He knows the glory will be worth it, God will risk being misunderstood."

-Beth Moore

There is still HOPE...........

Hey! Just wanted to leave a quick update! I just finished laying our new floor in the kitchen for 4 hours! My back is done! But I called the fertility clinic today, and the nurse told me that it is by no means over yet, just because I have not gotten a BFP on a HPT. She said it will not show up for two weeks, that's why they are not doing the test until 2 weeks after transfer. I know many of you who have done IVF have gotten BFPs on day 7 or 8pt, but she assured me that there is still plenty of hope.

I had my first cry about the whole situation. I have been keeping it all bottled up I think, and boy did it flow today. But I am holding on to the little bit of hope I got today. Maybe just a little nugget from the Lord telling me to hang on. HE will have the final say on Friday's beta test!

Thanks for still praying for our little embryos!

Home Improvements......

Well this weekend has been sort of depressing for me, since we keep getting BFN (Big Fat Negative) on the home pregnancy tests. So to take my mind off all this IVF baby stuff for awhile, we decided to pour ourselves into some LONG overdue home improvements. So we decided to redo the guest bathroom...... This is what it looked like to begin with. The sink top is yellow (ick!) and if you look closely you can see on the left side where the previous owners laid cigarettes and they burnt the porcelain! Soooo tacky!

This is the ugly linoleum floor, just yucky.....
So....... when we pulled the old vanity out, I kid you not, this is what we found UNDERNEATH the vanity! It looks like when they built this house over 20 years ago, they just put the vanity right in over all the trash on the floor. I mean seriously....... how disgusting!
Then, when we pulled up the old floor, the paper backing stuck down on the concrete. Sweetness spent 3 hours the first night scraping all that junk up! The brown towel on the floor is covering the hole where the toilet sits. It really was not a fun job!
And......



This is the finished project! It actually turned out very nice! The new vanity sink is bright WHITE, gone is the dingy yellow. And we ended up having to paint all the walls a fresh coat of bright white, and it look sooooo good!!!!

Notice the new floor we put in...... it really turned out nice!

And I love the new faucet we picked out! Yeah!!!! You will never believe how many problems we encountered in this little overhaul, but we did it OURSELVES, and we are very proud!

So then we decided to tackle another project that has been looming..... Let me explain! When I bought this house almost 2 years ago, the spare bedroom was a bright red color. So gross. So I painted it a very soft sky blue (perfect for baby boys :)) Well the closet doors that were on the two large closets were metal and covered in some disgusting brown tissue paper. So I had them taken down when I replaced the carpet in the whole house prior to moving in. Well, lets just say they have never been replaced, and we have looked at this the whole time......

Well tonight we did manage to get up one side of the new doors, also no small feat, but wow they look good! Why did I wait so long?????? This is a pic of the left side, showing the new sliding doors....... the right closet will get done tomorrow night. Right Sweetness????

Well folks,, that is all our excitement for this weekend. I wish with all my heart I had a BFP to report, but I don't. I have talked to several praying friends, and they are all agreeing with me to let God have the last word on Friday's beta test. I am still praying for our miracle, and trusting that God will have the final say, I just have to be patient, and anyone that knows me well knows that is not my strongest virtue.

Again, thank you for praying for us. Sweetness refuses to give up hope that our babies are still in there, and that really makes my heart happy. He is sooo wonderful, my greatest gift from the Lord (apart from my salvation). We will see what this week holds for us, hopefully reason to celebrate!

Ending with a scripture close to my heart:

"Though the fig tree does not bud and there are no grapes on the vines, though the olive crop may fail and the fields produce no food, though there are no sheep in the pen and no cattle in the stalls, yet I will rejoice in the LORD, I will be joyful in God my Savior!"

-Habakkuk 3:17-18

On egg shells.....

Hey girls! Well I am still waiting on the Lord, because I have taken an HPT everyday since last Wednesday, and they are all BFN!!!!! I am getting really scared that this did not work. I mean how can you put in two perfect embryos and nothing happen??? I honestly don't think I really prepared myself for it NOT working....and I am now trying to bring myself to this very real possibility. I feel so scared, depressed, angry, and hopeful all at the same time.

I wanted/want these babies so badly, my heart hurts to think that they left me. Sweetness sill feels sure that the test will turn positive tomorrow or the next day, but I have been reading all these IVF blogs and everyone that got a BFP got it on like day 7 or 8 after transfer. Tomorrow (Sunday) is my Day 8, and I am still believing God for my miracle.

Please pray for me, as I struggle to keep positive and desperately hope against hope that our sweet babies are still here in me. Love you guys......

What are they doing in there?

Still nothing to report! Sweetness and I are just trusting the Lord that our precious ones are snuggled in inside their mommy and growing. I wanted to know what they are doing at each stage (even before we have our BFP) so I added the little ticker at the left at the top. May 3 rd would be the estimated due date based on the date of my egg harvesting. If we have twins, the due date would be about a month before that in April.

I also added the picture of the embryos to the right side, so I can look at them all the time. My stomach feels tight and a bit heavy, but no more cramping thankfully. Yesterday I went in and they took blood work to check my estrogen level to make sure it is coming back down after all the stimming meds, and it is right where they want it!

Tomorrow night my Dad is coming over to help sweetness replace the vanity in our guest bathroom, I will take pics of the before and after. Should be good times!

Thanks everyone for continuing to pray for us, this waiting is the hardest part!

The Waiting......

Hey ya'll!!! Just a quick post to let you know what's going on.....We are in the dreaded 2WW (2 week wait) to find out if our little ones have decided to stay with us. The fertility clinic says I am PUPO, in IVF lingo that is Pregnant Until Proven Otherwise. I love it!!!!

I am having some cramping and am so scared something is happening, but lots of friends said they had cramping too, and it could be the babies implanting. I laid down and did not move for the first 40 hours like a good girl, but man was my back killing me! I wanted to get up! But for the babies I will do anything!

Not much to report right now. I go back to the clinic in the morning. I am not sure what they will be doing, I think just getting an estrogen level. I will keep you posted..... Please keep praying for our miracles!!!

Ending tonight with a scripture-

"Delight yourself in the LORD and he will give you the desires of your heart"

-Psalm 37:4

Snuggle in little babies.....

Well here they are...... our precious little ones! These two embryos were transferred into me today. The one at the top is a grade 8A ( 8 cells, perfect morphology) and the one on the bottom is grade 8A- because it has some fragmenting. The other 3 were frozen and all were of excellent quality.

So Sweetness and I arrived at the clinic, so full of hope......

And I started taking pictures of all the wonderful people who helped make this happen. This is Martina, the IVF Coordinator. This lady is so amazingly kind and she walks you through each step. Love you !!!!
And this is Ms Patty, my nurse today and Wednesday when they harvested the eggs. She is soooo funny! She really helped the doc when I decided to stop breathing on Wednesday. Thanks Patty!
So here we are getting on our OR attire, Sweetness was allowed to stay in the room for the transfer (which I was so glad about). Doesn't he look cute?

And then they start forcing you to drink gallons of water, because your bladder has to be full for the transfer. Here I am trying to get it all down!

To be honest, the transfer was very hard. Dr Robin could not get the catheter into my uterus because it was bent up at a 90 degree angle. She tried everything. After many tears and prayers from us all, God made a way, right when she was going to give up, and the catheter went in!!! God is working miracles all over this whole process. Then Dr Robin put our two precious babies in, and you could see the two white dots on the screen, very cool!!!!

Before she left, while I laid on my back, she took a very sweet picture with me......

She is the most wonderful doctor.....I cant say enough how thankful I am to have her as my RE!!! Thank you Dr Robin for making dreams come true!

Well I have more I could say, but this is incredibly hard to type laying on your back. But this is where I will stay for the next 2 days.

Snuggle in little babies, I will give you a nice warm home!!! We love you already!

Thank you for the prayers everyone as we wait for two weeks to find out if I become pregnant!

Tomorrow is THE DAY!!!

Well girls, we have finally made it! Tomorrow (Saturday) we will be going to the clinic to pick up two of our precious embryos. I have to be there at 11 am, it will start with 1/2 hour of acupuncture, then followed by an hour massage. Then they will transfer two babies into their Mommy's tummy! Then I will have another 1/2 hour acupuncture.

Some family and friends has asked me about why I am having acupuncture. Well, I am kind of nervous about it really. I have never had it before, but Dr. Robin (our RE) said she has seen very convincing evidence that women who have acupuncture immediately before and after the embryo transfer have a higher implantation (pregnancy) rate. So we said after all this work, we would do it, making sure to cover all our bases. I will not be home until probably 3pm, and then I have 48 hours of complete bed rest. Sweetness is all ready to wait on me..... I have rented 3 movies, and ready to snuggle with the babes all weekend.

Thank you all so much for the lovely comments, the amazing prayers, and sweet cards sent our way! We are so grateful to have so many friends who love us, and are agreeing with us in prayer for God's will for our family. Our lives will forever change tomorrow!

I will try to do a post tomorrow some time, while laying on my back, I am making sure to take pictures tomorrow too.

Ending tonight with a fitting scripture-

"Behold, children are a gift from the Lord, the fruit of the womb is a reward. Like arrows in the hand of a warrior, so are the children of one's youth. How blessed is the man who's quiver is full of them, they will not be ashamed."

-Psalm 127: 3-5

5 Beautiful Babies....

Hey peeps! Hope you enjoyed the post from Sweetness last night. I was certainly not feeling up to doing anything. I was in so much pain, it was crazy! But today, the Lord has renewed my mind and body and I am feeling so much better!

So as Sweetness said in the blog post from last night, they were able to retrieve 7 eggs from me yesterday. The embryologist called today and told us that they were able to do ICSI (Intracytoplasmic Sperm Injection) on all 7 eggs, and 5 fertilized!!! That's right, we now have 5 beautiful babies growing and dividing, waiting for their mamma to come get them. Things are still right on track for them to put 2 embryos back into me on Saturday, we will freeze the rest for a chance at becoming pregnant again in a couple of years.

You know, I know God performs miracles, but this was my week to see Him in all His Glory. He has made so many things line up, and I know with out a doubt He, and He alone, has been the one that has gotten us this far in our journey to parenthood. Even me messing up bad and forgetting the Lupron shot, He prevented me from ovulating saving my eggs. Yesterday under anesthesia, I stopped breathing (scary i know) and they had to bag me; but God alone protected me and the eggs. The doctor told us afterwards we were lucky they got any eggs, because I scared them so bad, they almost scrapped the whole procedure! But God had other plans, and He is working them out in His own special way! It is just so neat to see the hand of God at work in your own life!

While I know there is always a possibility of me not getting pregnant this time, I am completely trusting Him and His timing. But I do just feel it! I love this feeling I have today for my 5 precious babies growing right now. Such love and awe.......

Please continue to keep us in your prayers, and these little ones. Pray that they keep dividing, stay healthy and that we get a successful twin pregnancy this time. May the Lord's will be done in our lives. I am calm and peaceful, I trust my Lord for the outcome, good or bad, His Will is where I want to be!!!

Ending with a scripture-

"Don’t worry about anything: instead, pray for everything. Tell God what you need and thank him for all he has done. Then you will experience God’s peace which exceeds anything we can understand."

-Philippians 4:6

Seven Beautiful Eggs

Hey y'all, this is "Sweetness" aka Heather's hubby. The day is over and I gotta tell you, its been a roller coaster. We got to the doctors office and, just like the military, it was hurry up and wait. When we were finally called back, I was directed to the "blue room" and my babe was taken back to see the anesthesiologist. So...I'm sitting there and sent a little prayer up to God. We've had some stressful moments this week and He has always lifted us up through those times, so I knew that He would listen today. It was then that I found out the coffee machine was empty...ummm, not so good. Hey, I had my blackberry and a full battery, so time to surf.

After about two hours, they called me to go back with her in recovery and she was looking...a little frazzled. Turns out that the team had a difficult time putting and keeping her under. So much so that they had to "bag" her twice. Yea, I wasn't digging that too much either. But the good news came next. Seven beautiful eggs all ready for my swimmers. I wont go into that experience only to say that...umm...it was awkward.

So the nurse went over the meds...what to take and what not to take and we were off. A Chic-fil-a stop later we were at the house and my babe was resting for a couple hours. Then...fifteen minutes ago...it was time. Time for me to give my first shot EVAR. Now, I can hold my own with a calculator, but a syringe??? Have you SEEN the needle? You have GOT to be kidding me. But I gotta say, I came through like a champ. 2 cc's of something or other is now coursing through her body thanks to me.

So the remainder of the evening will be relaxing in bed while I keep poking my head in asking if I can get her anything.

Today was the first of many great days to come and I'm looking forward to the months ahead, waiting for the little ones to make their entrance into the world. Sometimes, I wonder if I'm going to be a good dad, but the reaction I get from my babe pushes those doubts away. I'm so far from perfect, but I want to be the best husband and dad that I can be. With my babe, my family and the Lord, I know there's nothing we cant do.

So we want to thank everyone for their prayers. We should hear tomorrow late afternoon how many embryos are fertilized. So stay tuned, same bat channel, same bat time.

Take care,
Sweetness

The Eggs are Ready!

Ok girls, all the blood work has indeed confirmed that I HAVE NOT ovulated despite being 45 minutes late taking Lupron Sunday night! We are so thankful and happy! So tomorrow is the day...I will be going in at 9:15 am to have my eggs harvested under anesthesia. And tomorrow is technically the day that our future babies will be conceived! We are so happy, and trusting the Lord for His Will to be done in all the activities over the next couple of days leading up to Saturday when they put the embryos back into me.

Thanks for your prayers, and I think I will let Sweetness do a guest post tomorrow to update you all! See you tomorrow!

All Clear....almost

I can not thank you enough to all my praying friends who have helped Sweetness and I through this day! We went in for our scan this morning at 645 am, and because I was 45 minutes late on my Lupron shot last night they did blood work to verify if I had ovulated in that 45 minutes. Well after a day of praying and pleading with God, the nurse called and said that the blood work looks good, and it seems as though I did not ovulate!!! God answered our prayers and we are so thankful!!!

Tomorrow morning we go back for our LAST follicle scan and more blood work to be sure I still did not ovulate. If everything is good with tomorrow's blood work, they will retrieve my eggs on Wednesday morning at 9:15am!!!!

Dr. Robin said she is believing with us that all will still be okay, and told us to go ahead and trigger tonight at 11:45pm!!! My sweet friend Joyce, who is a nurse, is coming over that late at night to give me the trigger shot, and show Sweetness how to start giving me the injections in the bum. Woo Hoo!!!!

Still praying everything will work out with the blood work tomorrow, and we are claiming God's promises!!! Thank you for standing with us!!!!

Third follicle scan....

UPDATE: Well while I was busy typing the below blog post, I missed my Lupron shot at 7pm. I remembered 45 minutes later! I am soooo upset. If you miss Lupron, you can ovulate, and then they cancel the cycle. I called the emergency number and the nurse called me back, and she said there is really nothing I can do at this point. Tomorrow morning when I go in for my scan, they will take a progesterone level and see if I ovulated. Can I ask for your prayers tonight? I am devastated, and this is sooo much money, we can not do it again! Lord, please do not let us have to cancel the cycle! Please!

Well today at 7:30am, sweetness and I rolled into the fertility clinic again! We had the follicle scan, and everything is looking great! I still have 26 on the left and 14 on the right. The cyst is maintaining the same size so that is good. My lining is up to 5.5mm, I feel like that is really thin? Does anyone know? The sizes were ranging from 17.5 to 4....lots of 15s and 13s so we are moving right along!

I go back tomorrow morning for my 4th and final scan, and will look for the go ahead from Dr.Robin to trigger tomorrow night. IF that is the case, the egg retrieval will be on Wednesday and embryo transfer will be on Saturday!

It is all getting so real and close now, I am starting to get very nervous. There are so many things that can go wrong. And even worse yet, I am so afraid of a BFN (Big Fat Negative). But I am trying to hold on to God's promises and wait on His perfect timing!!

Please don't stop praying now, we need it now more than ever!!!! See you girls tomorrow!

Playing with Trees

Remember I told you a couple days ago that a big tree fell in our yard with those killer storms last week? Well today some wonderful men from our Sunday School class at church came over to assist in cutting it down and hauling away the debris.

This is what it looked like when we started.......

Sweetness was hard at work, after the chain saws got to work.

This is Frank, our awesome Sunday School teacher, and just plain great guy!

And newlywed Dwayne came over to help, and made fast friends with Maggie.

And this is Jeff, the "leader" of the group today!!

After they got the part that had fallen on the ground all cut up, then they pondered how to get the big tall part down that was jutting out into the neighbors yard. They ended up getting ropes tied around it, and guided it down carefully, not taking out any fences! Good work guys!

Maggie just chillin outside watching all the action!

Here are all the guys, guiding it down.....

There she goes.....

We can't thank you enough guys! Sweetness could have never gotten it all done alone! It took 4 1/2 hours and 5 strong men to get it all done, and after a pizza lunch and good cold water bottles, we were ready for a nap!

So tomorrow (yes on Sunday) we go back for our 3rd follicle scan to determine when the egg harvesting will be. I will update tomorrow and let you know. I should have about 60 eggs maturing in there, as my abdomen is feeling so big and bloated, I will be glad when this stimming is done :)

Ending tonight with a scripture-

"Be shepherds of God's flock that is under your care, serving as overseers—not because you must, but because you are willing, as God wants you to be; not greedy for money, but eager to serve"

-1 Peter 5:2

Follicle scan number 2......

Sweetness and I went for my second US this morning at 7 am to see how my follies are doing. I now have 40 total! My left ovary seems to be doing most of the work......it has 26 follicles on it, ranging in size from 16mm to 5mm. My right only had 12 today. I asked her if I lost a follicle since Wednesday when I had 13 on the right and she said maybe she just couldn't see it if it was real small.

I am soooo miserable girls! I was up most of the night with severe abdominal pain, could not sleep. I was so nervous that I was Hyper Stimulating. But they said my E2 (estrogen) level was 547 last Wednesday, which is good for Day 5, and I have not heard what it was today. But my abdomen feels so bloated and sore, I am just MISERABLE, and they said it was going to get worse before it gets better. Great! Has anyone that has gone through IVF experienced this kind of pain??

On a happier note..... we go back Sunday morning for our 3rd scan. The nurse said today that they will decide when to harvest the eggs, based on the sizes on Sunday. There has to be a certain percentage of the follies at 16mm or higher in order for them to trigger me. I only have one today at 16, but she said you want them to mature slowly not really fast. So I am on track, just really wishing this "stimming" period was over. My stomach is covered in bruises and red welts, I look like an addict of some sort!!!! LOL

Thank you for the prayers, you guys are wonderful! And for all my friends who have left notes on Facebook that they don't know how to leave a comment, scroll your mouse over the "_ sweet comments" line that is just below where it says "Trusting In Him, Heather" at the bottom of this post. Then a window pops up and you type your comment in there and you can click "anonymous" so you don't have to join blogger, and then click post. It is pretty easy once you do it once, you'll be pros!!! :)

Love you guys, and thanks for the prayers for Mom, she is doing really great!

Grow Follies Grow!

Can you say 31 follicles????

As you know today was my first follicle scan after starting the stimming meds. Well "Wanda" (the ultrasound wand) told us that I have 18 follicles on my left ovary and 13 on my right!!!! I could not believe it....seriously 31 follies??

Dr. Robin said I am responding extremely well to the drugs, but she did say she does not think we will get 31 eggs. They range in size from 3.5mm to 11 mm, with most of them falling in the 8-9 range. So they dropped down my Repronex dose for tomorrow.

There was one thing I was upset about. Remember that cyst I had aspirated last Friday that liked to have killed me? Well IT'S BACK!!!!! It has completely filled up with fluid again!! I was like NO WAY!!! Dr. Robin said they can clearly see now with all the mature follicles that it is definitely ovarian and not my tube filled with fluid, she said it will not affect anything, and she will aspirate it again when they do the Egg Retrieval (after I am under anesthesia) thankfully! And on a thankful note, they got the pathology report back on the fluid they aspirated out of it last Friday, and it showed no malignant cells and no infection. Praise God!

I go back at 7 am on Friday to check on them again, and then Sunday for the final scan!! It's actually happening! We are so excited!

For those of you who know my Mom, please say a prayer for her. She is still feeling really bad, and even had an ER visit last night. They say she is going to be okay, I just wish she would feel better now! I know she would appreciate the prayers!

Ending tonight with a scripture:

"We will shout for joy when you are victorious and will lift up our banners in the name of our God. May the LORD grant all your requests."

-Psalm 20:5

Grow follies grow........

Well we are still stimming, Day 4 down! I am very excited about tomorrow and to be able to see all the follicles growing! I hope my body responds to this medicine, since I have never been through this before.....who knows?

And as if we did not have enough to concentrate on right now, the toilet in the guest bathroom has leaked all over the floor! Ughhhhh! I have called the Home Warranty people, still waiting for them to call back. Then the killer storm we had this afternoon, decided to lay down the mammoth oak in our backyard. So now we have to figure out how to cut and haul away all the tree limbs and wood! It is always something, but I will count it ALL joy!!!!

I will update you tomorrow with how my follies are doing!!! Grow baby grow!

Ending tonight with a Scripture-

"If you declare with your mouth 'Jesus is Lord', and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved."

-Romans 10:9

I feel like a Pin-Cushion!!!!

Well this is exactly how I am feeling! I have been stuck so many times in the past 3 days (5 x a day), that I am beginning to be a pro at this! We still have 7 days left of this! The one medicine Repronex is the worst one. It burns going in and it leaves a big red knot on your stomach where you inject. I called the clinic today and asked the nurse if I was allergic to it or something else, and she said this is pretty normal for this medication. Has anyone else out there experienced the same thing with Repronex, or Menopur (same thing)????

Nothing else to report really, just cranking down the days until my egg retrieval!!! Thank you all for the sweet messages, they really mean alot as I ride this roller coaster trying to get all my follies to grow! First scan is Wednesday, I will update then, and let you know how we are progressing!

Ending with a Scripture:

"All Scripture is God-breathed and is useful for teaching, rebuking, correcting, and training in righteousness"

-2 Tim. 3:16

Stimming .......Day 2

Hey peeps!!! Well I am beginning to feel the effects of all these medications I am pumping my body full of around the clock!!! I am so irritable- poor sweetness, he really is taking all this in stride.

This really is a bit more difficult than I thought it was going to be. My stomach is so sore and has little bruises all over it from all theses injections. I am trying to stay positive as I know it increases the chances of IVF being successful, but today I feel so yucky I am wondering if this is even going to work! It's like a roller coaster of emotions.

So we still have 8 more days of doing this "stimming." My first US to check and see how things are progressing is on Wednesday. I will let you guys know then. Sorry I don't mean to be negative when this is such a positive thing, I am just really feeling cruddy from all these hormones.

And is anybody out there reading this???? Please leave me a comment and let me know you stopped by. I hardly ever have comments so I just wanted to be sure I am not writing this to myself!!!! It's simple to do, at the bottoom of the post it says "_ sweet commnets", just click on that and type something in the box. If you are not a member of blogger, just click "anonymous" and sign your name in the post so I will know who sent it. See????Not so bad!!!

I have a very long, stressful week at work this week, so I may only update the blog after my follicle scans! Bear with me. I will take pictures on Wednesday at the clinic. Thank you for the prayers, please don't stop, we need them, and we feel them!!! Love you all!!!!

Oh- Mom came home from the hospital today!!! She is doing so much better. They found out she needed 2 blood transfusions she was so anememic. After that, her horrible migraine is gone and she feels great! She even walked up the stairs to get into the house!!! Go Bonnie Go Bonnie!!! Thanks so for the prayers for her continued recovery!

Ending tonight with a scripture-

"Hear my cry, O God; listen to my prayer.
From the ends of the earth I call to you, I call as my heart grows faint; lead me to the rock that is higher than I. For you have been my refuge, a strong tower against the foe."

-Psalm 61:1-3